A friend of mine made what is, in my opinion, a valid point today. Have you ever sort of mentally evaluated the whole idea of one night stands in your mind? Or more specifically, the reason why they're not two week stands?
Well, it led to me thinking... sex obviously creates emotions, right? What I got to wondering about, though, is is it possible to truly have a long-term relationship that is purely physical from the start without one party developing feelings for the other?
Moreover, I've thought about it. The only people I'd be willing to have one night stands with, would be people I'd be willing to engage in a relationship with. I guess the stands would only happen because I'd never see them again, and it'd be a way of expressing my feelings for them. Kinda sad, really.
On the other end of it all though, I guess you must end up with people that don't want to feel anything at all, which is pretty sad.
Anyway, the latest on the chick that wants my beef: She messaged me once today. I replied, asked a couple of questions about her day, and how she was doing, and didn't get a reply. I can't believe she hasn't lost interest yet.
To end off this blog, I'll leave you with what is possibly the most ridiculous statement I've heard in I don't know how long: "Perhaps women have a greater need for intimacy while men are at it (sex) for purely physical reasons...."
Resignation: Sanity's refuge, I presume?
This is a manifestation of me, of who I am, of my thoughts, my dreams, my desires, my life, only all in text. It serves as an outlet, and most importantly, it allows me to laugh at myself.
Tuesday, September 30, 2003
I'm starting to not care about getting wasted and looking like an idiot… There’s the whole principle of being reinforced for doing something.... Well, it's like I'm being positively reinforced when I do it....
It's as if drunkenness is a window to one's soul, in a sense. The stupid facades most of us have developed die along with soberness. They melt away so quickly, leaving others with a view of the whims that drive us, the ideals we might hold dear, our morals, our desires, our secrets, how the hurt we might have endured over the course of our lives has shaped us... basically, who we really are....
Moreover, someone will much more readily reveal their true self to someone when they’re drunk, and when they are drunk, their façade is temporarily done away with. I've seen it a good few times, and I’ve also been the one to verify this theory on a few occasions.
And sadly at the end of it all, you wake up with a headache, or perhaps a queasy stomach… and the facade comes back. And it stays, and remains simply because you've developed it to prevent yourself from being hurt by the facades of most other people...
And it lasts until you get drunk again, or until you meet someone, and are willing to risk dropping the facade for him or her, and they seem to feel the same. If they don’t truly feel the same, they’re likely to hurt you, and then your façade will return again, and you’re probably likely to be even less trusting of people who seem to want a relationship. And can you be blamed?
I shall maintain that the closest I have ever become to anyone that I've shown my true personality to, has happened when either she, or both of us, were drunk
I wish we could all just leave our facades at home....
Monday, September 29, 2003
Why are 99% of women skanks? I know I would get told off by plenty of people for this post, if they could, but I've been asking myself this question for a long while now: Why are females willing to FBFD(Fuck before first date)? And we guys are always wrongfully labelled the hornier gender.... Yeah, right!
In my opinion, women are worse, in that the approach most of them take towards their own sexuality is one of masking it. They want it just as badly as guys, if not, worse. At least as far as we guys go, we're pretty straightforward. We like women. We want women. And we're open about it. We're still reasoning on pretty much the same level that the cavemen did, except we've stopped clubbing women over the head.
And it's a tried and trusted relationship paradigm that has successfully lead to the survival of the human race so far, so it can't be all that far off the mark....
Anyway, to get back to my original point I was attempting to make, I'll quote an sms I received: "I'm having a hot steamy bublblebath with candles and a bottle of really expensive wine... the only problem is... I'm lying here all alone...."
Now, no fucking prizes for guessing what she's hinting at. I'll give you a hint though: She isn't really keen on settling down for a rivetting 4 hour game of Monopoly. You'd only have to be about as smart as George W. Bush to figure that out.
Oh, and I wonder why she ignored me when I replied with a message of my own, saying "I'm envious. That sounds so relaxing, and I've had a pretty kak day." Incidentally, does the fact that I wanted to tell her to phone up her ex, who viewed her as a sex object, make me a bastard in thought?
And as for the whole physical-only relationship, well... way to take all the intrigue and romance out of a relationship in about, oh... 5 seconds? I know some guys would be envious, or would label me a faggot or a softcock upon reading this, but fuck 'em! They're not me.
I'm a member of a dying breed.... I'm a hopeless romantic... and I'm proud of it....
